i don't know
what you expect me to be
who you think i am
the how or why of me
i am not what you think
i am
i am not cool
i am not snow white in a glass box
waiting on your kiss
i am not perfect.
i am sometimes lazy, sometimes boring,
easily irritated
and i love you
i do
i sat on the back steps
and ran my eyes along the fence
covered in ivy,
tangled in thorns.
it might as well have been 20ft high
covered in barbed wire
his voice was behind me
lacking patience and kindness
i closed my eyes...
i wished
i prayed
as hard as i could
free....
let me be free...
another endless evening of make-believe by se0705, literature
Literature
another endless evening of make-believe
Here it comes
another night
with my head down
my mouth sealed
WHY WHY WHY
in my ears, in my head, in my face
i am so tired
i breathe in
i breathe out
waiting for it to end.
And i would be a liar
if i said i wasn't a little scared
i don't want to be.
i want to be stronger than i actually am.
.....I'm hoping i can fake it..
..i am going to pretend...
..that i'm not a nervous wreck..
..and that you can't hurt me..
..and that i'm really not tired..
i don't know
what you expect me to be
who you think i am
the how or why of me
i am not what you think
i am
i am not cool
i am not snow white in a glass box
waiting on your kiss
i am not perfect.
i am sometimes lazy, sometimes boring,
easily irritated
and i love you
i do
i sat on the back steps
and ran my eyes along the fence
covered in ivy,
tangled in thorns.
it might as well have been 20ft high
covered in barbed wire
his voice was behind me
lacking patience and kindness
i closed my eyes...
i wished
i prayed
as hard as i could
free....
let me be free...
Truths about me:
- i have issues with guilt
- i am disappointed and angry with my family
-age has given me better shape and style
-i work hard
- i believe in doing unto others as you wish others would do unto you or even each other
-i cannot grasp the concepts of racism or sexism
-i am not selfish
- i am almost too understanding
- i believe the less someone knows about you, the safer you are
- i have a vice or two
- i believe that everybody is different...thank god!!!
- i love my son more than anyone or anything else